Why I have been away.
Feb. 6th, 2008 04:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spaggelSo, i figured i would just let everyone know just WHY i have not been on LJ for a long while (outside of the flu)
I have recently had two of my Uncles Die. Within a month of each other, Nov 26th and Jan 30th. Both died of the same thing, Esophageal cancer. Both are hard, my Uncle Lloyd was 74 (the husband of my mom's older sister). It was painful, but it was worse to work through it with my mother. He was very close to her. Gave her her first job, helped with her wedding when her car broke and took care of me and my brothers and sisters as if we were the grand kids they wished they had.
The harder one is my other Uncle Roy. He was only 47 and the baby of the eight kids in my Dads family. He is going to miss his first grandchild who is 3 weeks away from birth. This is a lot harder on me as i spent almost every summer from birth to 16 visiting him with the grandparents(and farm). Every 4th of July my Dad's family goes camping and we are very close. It was hard just watching him be sick, knowing 8 months ago he only had a 30% chance to make it. Watching him get sicker and sicker. Seeing him right before he passed away, always in pain, having blood clots and strokes and the pain meds not working because of it.
The worse has been with my dad though. The whole family was on rotation to be with him so that when he passed away he would not be only and he wasn't, my dad was alone with him. I have never seen my dad cry until now and its the most heart breaking thing i have ever witnessed. (my mother has said the only other time she has ever seen him cry is after her miscarriage and after Roy had his first stroke when Roy's wife told my family to leave and that they were making things worse) My grandpa as well, he was sick last week before Roy passed away and wasn't allowed into the hospital to say good-bye to his son.
I will be going to Roy's funeral this weekend and after that I don't know. Its a lot to handle and to be supporting of my dad.
So, i don't know how long I will be away, but for now it wont be the same.
I have recently had two of my Uncles Die. Within a month of each other, Nov 26th and Jan 30th. Both died of the same thing, Esophageal cancer. Both are hard, my Uncle Lloyd was 74 (the husband of my mom's older sister). It was painful, but it was worse to work through it with my mother. He was very close to her. Gave her her first job, helped with her wedding when her car broke and took care of me and my brothers and sisters as if we were the grand kids they wished they had.
The harder one is my other Uncle Roy. He was only 47 and the baby of the eight kids in my Dads family. He is going to miss his first grandchild who is 3 weeks away from birth. This is a lot harder on me as i spent almost every summer from birth to 16 visiting him with the grandparents(and farm). Every 4th of July my Dad's family goes camping and we are very close. It was hard just watching him be sick, knowing 8 months ago he only had a 30% chance to make it. Watching him get sicker and sicker. Seeing him right before he passed away, always in pain, having blood clots and strokes and the pain meds not working because of it.
The worse has been with my dad though. The whole family was on rotation to be with him so that when he passed away he would not be only and he wasn't, my dad was alone with him. I have never seen my dad cry until now and its the most heart breaking thing i have ever witnessed. (my mother has said the only other time she has ever seen him cry is after her miscarriage and after Roy had his first stroke when Roy's wife told my family to leave and that they were making things worse) My grandpa as well, he was sick last week before Roy passed away and wasn't allowed into the hospital to say good-bye to his son.
I will be going to Roy's funeral this weekend and after that I don't know. Its a lot to handle and to be supporting of my dad.
So, i don't know how long I will be away, but for now it wont be the same.
